monkey monkey underpants

I thought about how I should scrapbook more and then how I’ve been writing a lot on my laptop recently and should start writing physically again then I thought about writing on the train and oo what if the person next to me sees then I thought about how I got out my folifax when I was last on the train then I thought about planning then I thought omg tax omg dentist then I thought omg fun plans at the end of November I thought oo Christmas oo red lipstick then I thought wait I’m meant to be sleeping gosh why so many thoughts then I thought of another thing to write then I was like god shush go sleep actually I should really stick a sheet of paper on my wall next to my bed for times like these then I thought monkey monkey underpants and then I thoughts hey I’ll just make this a blog post. Now I’m writing it down. Ok going back to sleep.

why does my brain never stop when i try to go to sleep? but during the day i feel as if it is slightly numbed. i love the night for this, it is a shame we need sleep. im making a game. i love you lorelai gilmore. i relate to her a lot, though i wish i had her drive. 

i have so many things im doing and wants to do. 

• i want to have folders on my pages for this blog. 
• i want to make a winter theme. 
• ive been writing more 'poetry'. (literally just writing i don’t know why im calling it poetry)
•  im doing more creative projects. 
• i want to learn to crotchet.  
• i should start sewing and upcyling again. 
• i should carry on writing my book.
• and im making a game too.

the list really does go on! 

i've been wondering how and what to share on here, like i would love to make little character profiles for my book to share, but also im not a writer so why am i 'writing' a book?

i would loveeee to share my game on here so you can all play it and test it with me, tell me what you like and don't like, if there's any problems or inconsistencies i havent spotted, but im also not a game developer so why am i making a game? 

i also like to think well im just a person, who's doing things and making things, just for fun, and im just existing, and there's nothing really wrong with that. screw the labels and the overthinking, im having fun! im enjoying my time getting all the stuff up in my head out into this reality, and that should be good enough! 

anyway here's a little look at my game, which is taking forever to make. its an old-vibe pixelated cosy game, where nearly everything is clickable and theres collections to find for all the scenes, plus special gold cards. there's different residents in which you have to complete little tasks for, adn everyone 5 stories; more unlock as you move through the game. finding collection and completing tasks gains you decor for your own fawn home, to decorate how you like. its just a chill cozy game, no time limit, no lives, just vibes.